I you really want to surrender to God and to receive the eternal life and ongoing life transformation He promises, you have to surrender to God as He has revealed Himself in Jesus Christ. To attempt to surrender to any other "manifestation" you might call god, it to submit to a god of your own making. That is because there is no Other than the One Who has revealed Himself in time, in history, in space. Jesus stated clearly, "If you have seen Me, you have seen the Father." Do not submit to deception. It ends in death beyond dying. Only Jesus Christ can give you life.